I’m not happy but I am not sad either
I’m not good but I am not bad either
I’m not rich but I am not broke either
I’m not lost but I am not home either
I’m not intelligent but I’m not dumb either
I’m not emotional but I’m not numb either
I am not low but I am not high either
I’m not dead but I am not alive either
I’m in that middle state
Of self loathing, and self hate
Where I can’t seem to find my way around reality
Constantly getting crushed between the walls of nonentity 



Do you ever feel a void in you, a sense of nothingness in an eternal manner? Like a black hole devoured all your thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories; traces of that warm yet grave smile in the deep corner of your heart, those wise words said in an ambiguous tone in the back of your mind, vestiges of those affectionate embraces which mean the whole world to you, on every inch of your skin. Boom! everything’s gone like nothing was never anywhere, when? Never! That’s why its been everywhere, screaming its fade existence and its been so everywhere that you don’t need a where, you don’t even need a when that’s how every or maybe empty it gets and there you’re stuck with blue and mellow silhouettes of nullity with quiet and doleful liquid ready to be poured down on your palms through your eyes; if only by shedding these drops of salty liquid we could change the lines of our hands, but, can we? so you sit there with a barrier of numbness holding everything back even your liveliness.000000000000000000000000000000000000000 

There is something in you


For there is so much strength in you
For there is so much depth in you
For there is so much idleness in you
For there is so much finesse in you
For there are so many dreams in you
For there are so many memories in you
For there is so much felicity in you
For there is so much audacity in you
For there is so much frustration in you
For there is so much redemption in you
For there is so much blaze in you
Look out
For there is so much haze in you
For there is so much rage in you
For there is so much change in you
For there is so much tragedy in you
For there is so much melody in you
For there is so much height in you
For there is so much fright in you
For there are so many ointments in you
For there are so many disappointments in you
For there are so many regrets in you
For there are so many sunsets in you
For there is reasoning in you
For there is meaning in you
For the word love is misheard in you
For life concurred with love in you




Like sky-walking; the skill of walking on a wire between two mountains; to live is to walk straight on a fragile wire, called Life, suspended between two days of your existence; the day you were born and the day you are going to die, but its not that simple as it sounds, there will be a pile of responsibilities on your head, every now and then,winds of betrayals and disappointments will blow and mere illusions like others have more thicker and broader wire to walk on or the treacherous winds are only roaring for you will blind you to throw you off balance, making you stumble upon your mistakes and its absolutely okay if you fall in to the gorge of nothingness and feel isolated because darkness and isolation are the exact things which will make you appreciate emancipation so its okay if you find yourself afar from walking that wire called life again, fret not, kiddo there’s always a way up for sedulous believers. All you have to do is hold onto vitality, never give-up and always continuing your struggle and eventually you’ll find your way up but nullity will leave you nothing but empty days and sleepless nights and wolves of regret will slowly eat you in that tenebrous gorge  blinding you with the murk of pain till the end of your days, rotting your precious quiddity away and I see that as a great loss to humanity. So the thing is, vitality is essential to conclude your journey of life and believe me, with love in one hand and hate in the other, accompanied by their right balance you can even dance your way through life with a constellation prize of death at the end.


Do rujhan (two phenomenons)

​Hai zinda rawangi se zindagi

ہے زنده روانگی سے زندگی 

Darya k thehrao ne sikhaya hai

دریا کے ٹھیراؤ نے سیکهایا ہے  


Sirat mustaqeem, manzil falah

صراط مستقیم، منزل فلاح

Magar khuwahishon k chorahe ne bhatkaya hai

مگر خواہشوں کے چوراہے نے بهٹکایا ہے


Ajab nizaam-e- amal, jitna is jahaan main nafa

عجب نظام عمل، جتنا اس جہاں میں نفع
Utna uss jahaan main nuqsaan uthaya hai

  اتنا اس جہاں میں نقصان اٹهایا ہے

Mushkil k saath asaani, sukh k saath dukh

مشکل کے ساتھ آسانی، سکھ کے ساتھ دکھ 
Beshak har shai ko khuda ne jori main bnaya hai

بے شک خدا نے ہر شہ کو جوڑی میں بنایا ہے 

Hun ahsasaat k haseen gulistan main magar

هوں احساسات کے حسین گلستاں میں مگر
anjaan si be-hissi ne dil murjhaya hai.

انجان سی بے حسی نے دل مرجهایا ہے

Sakht rawaiyon ki jhulsti dhoop main

سخت رویوں کی جهلستی دهوپ میں 
Shiddat se derkar shaistagi ki chaya hai

شدت سے درکار شائستگی کی چھایا ہے



When I know

when I know I can’t get you
then why do I wait for you
Seni alamayacağımı bildiğimde
O zaman neden seni bekliyorum

When I know I love you
then why do I hate you
Seni sevdiğimi bildiğimde
O zaman neden senden nefret ediyorum

when I know you are lost
then why am I finding you
Kaybolduğunu öğrendiğimde
O zaman neden seni buluyorum

when I know you won’t read my words
then why am I writing for you
Benim sözlerimi okumayacağını bildiğimde
O zaman neden senin için yazıyorum
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جس طرح رات میں اندهیرے کی وحشت سی
مگر ساته میں نئ صبح کی وعید بهی
اسی طرح زندگی سے نہ امید بهی هوں
مگر بہتری کے لیے پر امید بهی…..

As the Night’s Darkness begets Dismay
but also accompanies a sense of a new Day
similarly,I am Hopeless from life
but hopeful for amelioration to come my way


The Voices in my Head are Rising again
These are making me Insane
My head is bursting with pain
I want to get rid of them
I can not even blame anyone
All I can do is cry
But my eyes are dry
I guess I’ll have to survive
For I will be in ruins of my Dreams Forever
This utter Chaos will never be Over Untitled-1dsfdsfds

Kya Karein ?

Kyun hain mushkil zeest k marhale ?
کیوں هیں مشکل زیست کے مرحلے ؟
Kabhi hon jeenay ki khuwahaan
کبهی هوں جینے کے خواہاں
Kabhi marney ko dil shiddat se kare
کبهی مرنے کو دل شرت سے کرے
Btao zara karein to kya karein?
بتاو زرا کرے تو کیا کریں ؟
Dost aur dushman main farq kaise karein ?
دوست اور دشمن میں فرق کیسے کریں ؟
Sab hi muhsin-o- khair khuwah
سبهی موحسن-و- خیر خواه
Sab hi k chehre muhabbat se saje
سبهی کے چہرے مہبت سے سجے
Btao zara karein to kya karein ?
بتاو زرا کریں تو کیا کریں ؟
Kis tarah dil ko neki ki taraf mayil karein ?
کس طرح دل کو نیکی کی طرف مائل کریں ؟
Kin beshumaar namazein ada
کیں بےشمار نمازیں ادا
Phir bhi yeh dil faqt gunah kare
پهر بهی یہ دل فقت گناه کرے
Btao karein to kya karein ?
بتاو زدا کریں تو کیا کریں ؟
Kaise mitaein un k gilay?
کیسے مٹائیں ان کے گلے ؟
Kar dein sab mushkilein bayan
کر دیں سب مشکلیں بیاں
Ya kuch aur muddat sabr karein ?
یا کچه اور مدت صبر کریں ؟
Btao zara karein to kya karein?
بتاو زدا کریں تو کیا کریں ؟ijooipoi[p

I Believe

i-believe-in-the-power-of-teaching-people-how-to-cook-healthy-food-1-728I believe that some scars always cause pain
I believe that broken hearts can love again
I believe that this world will end in flames
I believe that no one in this world is sane
I believe that it can be dark even in broad daylight
I believe that Shadows can exist without light
I believe that wars can be won without a fight
I believe that masses can’t make a wrong, right
I believe that love cannot exist without hate I believe that good things always come late
I believe that everything’s just a matter of fate
I believe that there is no happiness unless you create
I believe Because my beliefs Forge my Destiny
I believe because my Beliefs make me a Human being.